I am 46 years old, and i have been married to my infertile wife for 7 years. I am 5'10 and am starting to get gray hair. I enjoy reading a good book by the open fire. I have been haunted by a horrible recurring nightmare for some time now. It starts when I am on my way to conceive with my handmaid and I am crossing the bridge to get to her room. I am suddenly confronted by my wife. She begins to argue with me and pushes me. While I try to reason with her, she continues to push me and I fall over the edge of the bridge and I plummet to my death. Just before I hit the ground, however, I awake.